it is christmas season in norway.
and apparently that is a big deal.
ALL the companies, no matter how small, throw these massive parties and only people who work there are invited. it's totally free and we all get to wear snazzy outfits and drink til we fall over. way to celebrate the seasons in style.
we are having ours at hard rock cafe on saturday.
pictures will be taken.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
not simple. not complex. not sweet. not sexy.
leave it be. i would rather die than to kill myself.
im glad it's perfect. more perfect than i can ever be.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
this year has been full of change.
actually the last year and half has been full of change.
i have moved around and revoked myself from things i looked at as negatives. ive learned a lot about what i like, dont like, am capable of, miss, dont miss, can handle. and so on.
im starting to see that there really is a plan, and that everything does happen for a reason. not to make me stronger. but to know what i know.
i can see that things that crumbled are now starting to shape into something new. i can see the result of my own, and other's decisions. i can look at things from a new perspective and from an angle i dont feel threatened in any way.
i think im done with being uncomfortable with change, and i want to embrase it.
i see that things i think i want ill learn to live without once i get what i dont know i want yet.
i see that im an asshole. weak. honest. a slow, but good worker. a thinker.
ive come to the obvious conclusion i cant change the past. and rather i shouldnt because it would screw up my secured future.
i cant help but want to and wish for things to be different sometimes. im only human.
actually the last year and half has been full of change.
i have moved around and revoked myself from things i looked at as negatives. ive learned a lot about what i like, dont like, am capable of, miss, dont miss, can handle. and so on.
im starting to see that there really is a plan, and that everything does happen for a reason. not to make me stronger. but to know what i know.
i can see that things that crumbled are now starting to shape into something new. i can see the result of my own, and other's decisions. i can look at things from a new perspective and from an angle i dont feel threatened in any way.
i think im done with being uncomfortable with change, and i want to embrase it.
i see that things i think i want ill learn to live without once i get what i dont know i want yet.
i see that im an asshole. weak. honest. a slow, but good worker. a thinker.
ive come to the obvious conclusion i cant change the past. and rather i shouldnt because it would screw up my secured future.
i cant help but want to and wish for things to be different sometimes. im only human.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
change
changes i don't make for me never last.
that's why i have never expected anyone to change for me.
speaking of expectations. i don't really expect anything from anyone.
but what ive come to realize is that there's one person who expects a whole lot from me, and everyone else. when you say you'll call this person expects you to. it never occurs to them the way it does me that there's a big chance this call will never be made. the good thing is, becaus they expect it of me, i do it. maybe we should all expect more of eachother. just not change that isnt wanted.
that's why i have never expected anyone to change for me.
speaking of expectations. i don't really expect anything from anyone.
but what ive come to realize is that there's one person who expects a whole lot from me, and everyone else. when you say you'll call this person expects you to. it never occurs to them the way it does me that there's a big chance this call will never be made. the good thing is, becaus they expect it of me, i do it. maybe we should all expect more of eachother. just not change that isnt wanted.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
paradise
i kind of think it's settled. it seems like all those waves and the strong current has eased a bit.
i feel calmer today. not more in control, because it is not within my reach at this moment; however, i think i'v accepted that sometimes life just pushes you. sometimes you can't fight that current, -you just need to flow with it and hope you make it to land somewhere warm with a snazzy beach.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
when it is dark enough, i can see the stars -Charles beard
leave it up to me to think.
think about anything but the world. zoning.
not what life is to us, -but what life is to me.
not for everyone. because that's different.
are my expectations too high?
does the way each of us live our life have something to do with how our parents lived theirs.
i was thinking here the other day, maybe there is some truth to that we usually end up like our parents.
i mean since we have their dna it would make sense that we would share some of their personality traits. like being hard working, or a push over, and so on.
If our parents didn't go to college, maybe that's why we don't. because we lack the same enthusiasm and effort they did/do.
well then.
think about anything but the world. zoning.
not what life is to us, -but what life is to me.
not for everyone. because that's different.
are my expectations too high?
does the way each of us live our life have something to do with how our parents lived theirs.
i was thinking here the other day, maybe there is some truth to that we usually end up like our parents.
i mean since we have their dna it would make sense that we would share some of their personality traits. like being hard working, or a push over, and so on.
If our parents didn't go to college, maybe that's why we don't. because we lack the same enthusiasm and effort they did/do.
well then.
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